envy-and-pride:

_{“I was born on a small pastoral farm in the north of Wall Sina, on a farm belonging to the noble house Reiss. Mother was always reading books, she was a beautiful woman. To me it was an incredibly normal lifestyle, but once I started being able to read it, I understood my loneliness. No matter what book I read parents would care for their children, embrace them or scold them, I never felt any of this. […] Five years later, a few days after the fall of Wall Maria, I met my father for the first time. “Historia, from now on, you will live with me.” […] with that, my father brought me outside to the carriage. Only then I noticed we were surrounded by a large crowd. […] “If only I had never given birth to you”, those were the last words mother said to me. Just before I was killed, my father came up with a proposal, if I hid my name, and run far away, they would let me live. Afterwards I lived in hiding for two years, and in the age of twelve enlisted in the trainee corps, and met you folks…“}